Dare I?

My sadness over runs me now each time I try and stand.  I am tired of losing and no longer have the power to even try again.  I quit, I lay my head for rest just to catch my breathe.  My eyes they open, I look and see and tears become the rest. No more strength falls unto to feet, no more light into my heart.   He kicks hards, I close my eyes. I have no more desire.
I fall asleep in the greenest meadow love is all I feel, I owe no one, I have no fear it's love that's here to stay. Dare I open my eyes? To risk the dream to leave? The feeling is so beautiful I never want to leave.  Slowly I open one at a time the beauty of it all.  I'm not tired, not afraid, I have my heart's desire!
Where is this place, I do not know, I never want to leave, kindness, love, teaching of light what more could I every need.  I want to stay and feel the light and love surrounding me.  No pain, no heartless, no un-kind words spoken here. No kicking anyone when down, only helping from the ground.