It is so funny, I seem to be obsessed with seeing what else is out there for me. I am looking at retreats and card reading, all kinds of books desperately trying to find my place. I am a mother, wife, sister, daughter, grandmother however, I just feel their is something else I can do even if I have this pain. It feels like I'm blocked and don't know where to turn.

I really am making an effort. Yesterday I was told, until I accept with mind and body that this is it I wont be able to move forward with my gifts. I kinda laughed because, the gift I had was mentoring people, its kind a funny when you think about that and read my blog. That gift is gone I can't motivate even me. Good to still have humor right?

Someone has to be going through this same stuff and have something to say where are you?
I read this quote: Don't be afraid of the space between your dreams, and reality if you can dream, it you can make it do! The problem with all this is what is next, what do I do? I am smart hard working and go after what I want, what ever the hell that is.

No worries seeing a therapist today...hmm