Saturday, May 23, 2009

Master of my destiny, Honestly Scary...

My journey has begun...I am the master of my destiny, that is a very big statement I made the other day in a whirl wind of optimism. Which I admit scares the hell out of me today, but I am moving forward so that is good. I have been doing some real thinking about what that means with the help of a new friend that I wish I could talk with. But that is another story.

Anyway, what I think it means is that I need to become the seeker. The seeker of myself first. Who am I? What am I doing? What am I made of? When I try to think of my good qualities it is difficult. Let me list them: I am loyal, I am a hard worker, I work on honesty and believe in the truth, I am a seeker, I don't quit, I am open minded, I believe in standing up for what you believe, I am a mother, wife, daughter, sister, the problem with listing mother, wife etc it would be a lie because I am not doing those things well right now. It is just a fact of life that I am those things. But....not good.

I read somewhere that every time you go into the past or future you lose light, negative emotions will scatter your light energy and make you no longer with your present. If that is true, I'm in trouble. Living right now, this moment I am struggling to see the good things in me....this is a problem. I can list a ton of things I don't like about myself and rarely have good thoughts about myself because of my situation.

So now the secret is to turn my thoughts around. How do you do that...pain makes you negative, you change your life completely and feel lost...negative. You don't like who and where you are, negative. Grateful for what I have....OMG this is going to be hard. That even makes me feel like a loser...I have to think to think about my blessings.

If my friend reads this please guide me to the right direction to help me with this concern. When you have more negative thoughts about what your are doing than good then what???

I will keep in mind I will have high and low moments and just need to remember that it is the divine balance of things for that to happen.

I am surrounded by magnificent love and light every moment of my life.

1 comment:

  1. When we feel connected and balanced spiritually we feel better physically and emotionally. Nourishing the soul is as important as food, water and exercise.

    When we feel spiritually connected and fulfilled, everything in our life including physical and emotional pain are easier to deal with. We feel lighter and happier.

    This is an extremely helpful asset for anyone living with a chronic health condition. You may not be able to cure your illness, but the spiritual can be used to help you feel better, cope with pain, symptoms, limits and daily challenges, continue to find meaning and purpose in your life and live life more fully. When things get really rough it gives us the strength to carry on.

    For some unknown spiritual reason it appears that it takes a great deal of pain, suffering and difficulties to push one to grow spiritually and emotionally and without there tends to be little growth within. I often feel angry that spirituality operates this way, but I have seen it be true over and over. In "The Alchemy of Illness," Kat Duff teaches us that "Indigenous communities believe illness is one of the most reliable means of revelation and knowledge."

    Most people are unaware of the importance of spiritual health, caught in the whirlwind of life, mindlessly and without question, living an illusion. Illness shatters this illusion. We are forever changed by the experience of illness and we learn things we would have never learned otherwise. We can take these spiritual lessons and the knowledge we acquire and share it with those around us to try and make the world a better place. Enriched spiritual health offers all of us comfort, meaning, harmony, purpose, hope, strength and inner peace in our life.

    Ways to Enhance Your Spiritual Health
    There are many different spiritual paths and no one can tell another which is the right one to choose. Each of us must follow the yearnings of our own soul or true self.

    It's important to note that we aren't talking about religion here. Some people may find spiritual fulfillment in religion, but it is only one of many ways. Religion and spirituality are not one in the same. Spiritual connection is about finding meaning and purpose in your life, discovering who you truly are and connecting with the sources that provide you inner strength, comfort, hope and inner peace.

    Be still and listen. Tune into your inner voice and identify what it is that makes you feel whole and connected to the universe. When do you feel most fulfilled and complete? What gives you inner peace, comfort, strength and harmony?

    For some it may be a daily ritual such as yoga, meditation while for others it may be weeding the garden, watching the sunset or taking a walk. Others may find it through community service, art, music or dance. The sources of spiritual fulfillment are many.

    Your spiritual health as well as your emotional and physical health may be improved by cultivating more humor and gratitude in your life. Remembering to appreciate the simple things in life and not taking yourself too seriously.

    A lot of people think that the search for the spiritual is a big mystery or requires attendance in retreats or meetings with great spiritual gurus, but that is not the case. Spirituality is an integral part of everyone and can found in all aspects of your life. You only need to become aware.

    Experiencing life completely and consciously even in the midst of great pain and suffering is the essence of spiritual health.

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