Well, my mission is in place, I am reading and moving forward mentally and have done pretty well. I am finding things daily to be grateful for and know that I am very lucky. I am seeking to find balance in my life and remain poised and centered. I have been in pain quite a bit lately but have not complained. After watching the Farah Facet story I told myself I could deal with my piece of life's balance quietly... and slowly work to be strong mentally and physically.
Do you ever wonder what you are searching for and think maybe you will never find it, or that this is really it? I am not talking about family I am so blessed there, it's hard to understand what I mean and be able to put in words for you to understand, maybe its value in myself ...I guess. Life's lessons are about what you do in crisis mode and how you deal with it. The book I am reading says's there is a ying and yang for everything. So if I didn't feel pain, I would never know what pleasure is and the purpose is to learn that lesson and that this what you call quantum balance in life.
I am really trying to read everything I can, I am trying to meditate, quietly listen to myself, find happiness where I can and enjoy the precious moments that come my way. I even had my sister take a day off work to show me how she is meditating because, I am struggling even doing that! I thought I must be doing something wrong. I could not see white light. I asked her if I could be evil or not worthy because I couldn't see it. You know... I've though about that Karma thing many times before. She said no, that it would come to me it just took practice.
I am in a feel sorry for me day again and sometimes think I try and move one step to the right direction and know its right because of synchronicity is happening all around me but, then I take three steps back. Pain is really bad today and I have given myself permission to complain on this blog about that. Life with pain sometimes seems unbearable and always a feeling of your soul being lost, especially under the influence of drugs . Good thing I have therapy today.
You know the thing is for me... I want to be a part of something great or at least feel a part of something great in life...is that so bad? I'm already a part of a great family...am I ungrateful because I want that? I want to contribute in some way other than getting up everyday straightening the house, going to the doctor, running errands etc....there has to be something I can do and still work around my pain! Life is so much more than this I feel it in my heart and soul. It can not just be filled with pain and basics of life with a lesson to be learned of ying and yang.
" We tend to forget happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather recognizing and appreciating what we do have" I feel like an idiot as I write that statement! But then... I think I just want to dance, dance in life and be thankful for all the treasures I have...but there is something deep in my soul that says more!! I want to be needed and know there is a bigger destiny for me out there somewhere. I am just so lost, lost, lost and tired.
I am surround with magnificent light and have the will to do what is needed. Amen
Nourish- to feed or sustain with substances necessary for life or growth; to promote growth; to maintain or support; to nurture.
ReplyDeleteSoul- the immaterial essence, animating principle or actuating cause of an individual; the spiritual principle embodied in human beings, all rational and spiritual beings or the universe; a person’s total self.
The holistic health field abounds with articles and books all teaching a variety of ways to nurture our souls. What exactly does all this mean and why is so important?
The soul being the very essence of whom and what we are is our life force and therefore it needs food on a regular basis to sustain us and prevent us from becoming stagnant and unfulfilled with life.
So what is nourishing to the soul? The things that make you feel whole, alive, and one with the universe (or God) is your soul food. This will vary from individual to individual, as our souls are very unique and complex, although many of us have some commonalities. Some common sources of soul food are nature, music, dancing, deep relationships, meditation, walking, prayer and many more.
My most important source of soul food is nature and time with my son. Doing things like spending time by the lake, taking walks, country rides, admiring the cloud formations, feeding and watching the birds, feeding a stray cat, gazing at the stars and moon and spending time with my son is what is most nourishing me. Nature is my lifeline. It rejuvenates me and helps me to go on. It makes me feel alive, full of life and connected to the universe. There is nothing more nourishing to me than spending a day on a blanket by my favorite lake and being intimate with nature, especially on a warm fall day when the leaves are bursting with color. Spending it with someone I love and engaging in deep conversation is even better. Writing, reading, certain types of music and singing along, dancing, deep relationships and prayer also nurture me.
You can discover your soul food by listening to the yearnings of your soul, by being still and tuning into your deepest voice within. Your soul will guide you to what it needs. Don’t ignore it and don’t put it off. Once you learn what you need, nourish it on a regular basis. If you neglect your soul then it becomes hungry and searches for food in the wrong places, which is destructive to your life and zaps you of your life sustaining energy.
After years and years of neglect one becomes disconnected from their soul and gets lost. Our world is sadly full of people who neglect their souls and the consequences of this are seen all around us in the level of addictions, violence, crime, depression, suicide, lack of compassion and respect for one another, divorce and destruction of our planet exhibited in our society. Our culture has not been very good at teaching us how to avoid this, perhaps because we were unaware for a long period of time, but slowly this is changing one by one.
Don’t neglect your soul! Listen to it, nourish it, and feed it everyday. It is as important as feeding your hungry stomach. If you have neglected your soul, it is never too late to start
Thank you kindly for sharing "The Darkest Hour" with me. Love it!
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